I’m forced to play
Even though I’m reluctant.
This happens every day
And there’s no way
I can stop.
I want to stop, but alas
I cannot.
I’m forced to play and play
Until I can’t take it anymore.
When I play, I have to hide
Only when they’re around.
I have to hide and hide
Until there’s no one around.
The only time when I
Don’t have to hide
Is when I’m alone
And when I’m home;
But only if nobody’s home.
When I play, they seek.
When they seek,
I have to keep hiding.
The reason why is because
They cannot see the real me.
Can you take a hint now?
The way I hide
I’m forced to wear a mask;
A mask full of every lie.
I may look happy
On the outside,
But I’m not; it’s the opposite.
Deep inside,
There is no bright sunshine,
Only a dark raincloud
And that’s something
I’m not proud of.
I’m forced to fake
Everything, like
Laughter and a smile;
Even my scars
That I’ve kept for more
Than a while.
When they seek me,
I have to hide.
When they ask me,
I’m forced to lie.
Even though I look like
I’m smiling and laughing
On the outside,
I am scowling and crying
In the inside.
And this happens every day,
Like a cycle.
I’m forced to play this game
And I cannot get out.
No matter how much
I want to stop
Playing this game,
There is no way for me
To escape.
Unless if I’m ready
…which I’ll ever be not…
To yell, “Here I come!”
I have to stay in this game
For eternity.