I can never forget everything they have said to me. I can never forget everything they did to me. Every day, people say to my face that they want me to die, especially those who have tormented me for no reason in both the real world and on the social media. It’s really unfair to me because I NEVER did anything wrong… ever.
People hate me because:
- I’m an anti-social/loner/have no friends
- I’ve been bullied throughout my entire life
- I had physically and emotionally abusive teachers and classmates in grade and junior high school
- of my sexual orientation
- I almost lost my mom thrice in the past
- I have been separated from my daddy for many years despite being a daddy’s girl
- I self-injure an cut
- I was diagnosed with anorexia/bulimia
- I lost so many family members to death
- my transgendered friend committed suicide
- I was in an abusive friendship with my best friend, who is no longer with me anymore
- all of my friends neglected me for no reason
- I’m the black sheep in my own family and some of them treated me like shit
- I have no one to be there for me.
It even still happens today; I still have the scars to prove it. People just don’t even know what it was like to be different from me. All of their words seriously hurt me. Both bullies and tormentors online and real life are getting worst by the minute… everyday.
They call me names, like:
- ugly
- depressing
- emo/goth
- attention-seeker/whore/slut
- hater
- and even a skinny bitch
Every time they call me those… I cry and harm myself.
and…
Everyone in real life once wrote a “Nicole Should Die” petition in school.
I almost ended myself because of them.
All these things around me has affected me severely, which is why I can never forget them.
-(C) Nicole Cheng, 2017