Here I am, surrounded by alcohol,
Razor blades and Lexapro pills;
Blood is swimming out of my skin,
Misery Severity is back, but really ill.
Faces are seen right in front of me,
Telling me to get the fuck out;
I don’t even know where to go,
I don’t even know what the hate is all about.
They say, I’m a freak, the whore;
They say, I’m nothing but the attention seeker;
They tell me to go die and stay in Hell,
If it’s true, then I’ll take their advice and go deeper
All the way to the concrete ground
Where I can go under and drown and drown.
I hate being around other people,
All I want is to be left alone
Where I can be myself outside of home.
I don’t want to turn back around,
I just want to change and fly away
But… I don’t even know how.
This is where I lay and cry on the couch,
Drinking nothing but glasses of wine,
My head is paralyzed; the predators are attacking me,
I don’t know how to stop them from making me blind.
Voices are heard right next to me,
Screaming at me to fuck off, bitch;
I don’t even know what they mean,
I don’t even know why they bury me inside the ditch.
They say, I’m the bitch, the slut,
They say, I’m nothing but the attention seeker;
They tell me to go die in Hell and stay there,
If it’s true, then I’ll take their advice and go deeper
All the way to the underwater ground
Where I can suffocate as I drown and drown.
I hate being around other people,
All I want is to be left alone
Where I can be myself outside of home.
I don’t want to turn back around.
I just want to change and fly away
But… I don’t even know how.
Help me, I’m trapped in my chrysalis,
I can’t reach to my metamorphosis.
I can’t even breathe, I can’t leave,
Help me get out of here
Before I drown in the frozen beer.
I hate being around other people,
All I want is to be left alone
Where I can be myself outside of home.
I don’t want to turn back around.
I just want to change and fly away
But… I don’t even know how.