To be honest with you, I’m still having trouble overcoming my pill addiction and alcohol abuse. I thought I was fine at first albeit due to a lot of jobless shit and being desperate to look for a job, I realized that I’m still depressed. I couldn’t help but to think that I should take more pills and drink alcohol with it. No. I’m not trying to kill myself, I’m trying to relief myself. To tell you the truth, sometimes I’d take more antidepressants than I should though not enough to kill me.
Honestly, I realized that I can’t live without my medications and alcohol. I truly need them and I can’t stop thinking of taking them.
I can’t even stop thinking of drinking more beer and wine, even though I’m not allowed to…