I am six feet under
Screaming and crying
Impulses arise
I am risking death
I have no control
I’m in love with my morose
Roses are massacred
Every petal wilted
Thorns are covered in blood
Nothing to hold me back
I am up, getting higher
Smoke within the clouds
Lighting the fire
Sending the ground ablaze
Remembering why
I lost control of myself
There are two sides of me:
Euphoria and Despair
I can be the sun
Shining bright in the sky
I can be the moon
Hiding within the darkness
There is nothing to stop me
From my mania and sorrow
I may be a hurricane or a tornado
In the eye of the storm
I am calm amidst the violent risks
Nothing to stop me
Except for one thing
I need the toxin to keep me safe
Keep me out of harm’s reach
Keep making me euphoric
But not covered with violent risks
Keep my mania safe
Bring on the pressure
Pressure me to keep calm
But make me stay in love with pain
I want to be masochistic
With your toxins
By making me hurt more
Bring your poison to me
Let me go to sleep
So I can dream in peace
Let my mania go
Please return to me
My beautiful poison
My lithium