It’s official.
I went over a month (31 days to be exact) without drinking alcohol!
I never knew that I would make it this far into reaching my sobriety. This is a huge accomplishment for me.
It started off when I was 17, I drank an entire bottle of apple martini behind my parents’ backs. It was the very first time I became intoxicated, which then made me turn to alcohol throughout high school and college.
I guess it was because I’ve went through numerous mental health issues prior to my bipolar and borderline personality disorder diagnosis in my early 20s. I turned to alcohol because of my hatred for young couples and people who aggravated and bullied me. I guess it’s because I was looking for a form of escapism from reality that I chose to drink into intoxication. It was the most egregious experience I ever went through throughout my years in high school and college.
One time in college, I was studying for one of my finals; while I was studying, I was heavily drinking simultaneously. Before the day of the final, I was vomiting and by morning, I was hungover. I couldn’t miss this final, so I drunkenly showed up to school. Before the final began, I slumped over my desk until the professor came. Then, I took the final–while hungover. Once I handed my exam to my professor, I told her that I wasn’t feeling well. On my way out of the classroom, I vomited in the trash–right in front of my classmates and professor. From what I recalled, the professor came up to me to ask me if I was okay. She then asked me if it was a stomach virus or a flu; I told her it was alcohol. I didn’t know what I was thinking, telling my professor that I was drunk during the final and I could’ve sworn my classmates heard me while they were still taking the exam. I bet they all think that I’m an alcoholic, which is something they don’t expect from me considering the fact that I was a benevolent, studious student. After (drunkenly) talking to my professor about me drinking, she told me to go home right away, and so I did. I took the train home whereas I nearly vomited in the train car in public, albeit I was able to hold it down. Once I got back home, I slept all day, trying to forget that this ever occurred in my life.
(I got a B plus on her final by the way).
One year later when I saw that professor, I thanked her for saving my life. I then came clean to her that I had a history of alcohol abuse and that I was actually hungover when I took her final that year. I don’t remember what she said next to be honest, though judging by the look of her facial expression, she was very empathetic and she understood what I was going through. I then admitted that I was still seeking help for my alcohol abuse and she became proud of me for coming clean and being honest with my troubles. I can never forget that time when she saved my life whilst my classmates never bothered to help me. This is why I prefer bonding with my professors instead of my classmates.
Even though being hungover in college was the most egregious experience I’ve ever had–I still drank and drank and drank.
I became an alcoholic ever since I first could remember in my late teens. Binge drinking has affected my life: I became physically unwell, I couldn’t work outside of home, I became more irate with people around me in public, and not to mention, alcohol worsens my borderline personality disorder and bipolar disorder, much to my chagrin.
It wasn’t until mid-March 2025, I randomly looked up celebrities who have died from alcoholism just to see what would happen to me if I persist drinking.
One of them was Amy Winehouse, my favorite singer during my childhood. Winehouse passed away in 2011 from alcohol poisoning and she was 27 when she died, hence one of the members of the 27 Club.
After realizing how young Amy Winehouse was when she passed and how much damage alcohol can do to one person…
I decided to make this change. And that change is to quit drinking.
I downloaded the IAmSober app on my phone on March 16, 2025 and put alcohol as the main incorrigible habit that I want to quit. Every day, I made pledges on that app. Every day, I’ve been abstaining myself from alcohol as a promise to myself to not drink anymore. Every day, I’ve been keeping track on my moods and daily life.
Guess what? I did NOT suffer from any withdrawals, I did NOT suffer from any urges, and I most certainly did NOT suffer from any unwanted cravings. I became one hundred–no, two hundred–percent sober ever since I first got this app. It really works!
Ever since I stopped drinking that very day, my health, both physical and mental, has improved. I became more active, I lost weight, I became more productive with working from home, I became more emotionally positive. No more depression, no more unwanted ire, not even manic episodes. I truly have improved myself with this life-changing choice.
Instead of drinking alcohol, I made substitutions: coffee, tea, lemon water, sparkling water, etc. It all worked out just fine.
After 31 days of not drinking a drop of alcohol, I decided to not stop there. I became what is called a teetotaler and I am very proud of this decision I’ve made.
From now on, you will never see me drunk or hungover ever again. I am now a teetotaler and I will stay like this for the rest of my life. 😁