The worst part of having PTSD is having nightmares every night when I go to sleep. Some of them are caused by my triggers and some are just impetuous from my prescriptive medications:
- eating animal intestines and embryo despite I’m a vegan
- seeing ghosts in front of me
- getting possessed by demons, like in the movie “Lovely Molly”
- school violence and massacres/locked down in the classroom
- taking beating hearts out of stuffed animals that are still bleeding
- going to malls that I hate because of laughing people and couples
- meeting people I’m afraid of from the past
- severely self-mutilating myself
- being in my childhood home, where I was abused as a child but never want to leave
- stalkers are watching me through the windows
- faces I’m truly afraid of